I'm saving this for real this time

Monday, January 29, 2007

Monday, January 22, 2007

sillies!

Monday, January 15, 2007

Make me feel tiny if it makes you feel tall

Well a long weekend it has been..but it has gone by pretty fast!
Friday I got out of school and well I honestly don't remember what I did, well think I rested and watched tv and yes i recall i complete 5 Sudoku puzzles until Atticus and I decided to go see Pan's Labyrinth. It was a dark fairytale and very violent yet still enjoyable through the cringing moments. It was too cold for icecream. We had a nice time..we have never hung out just the two of us. Hes a good person to go see a movie with becasue he shares snacks well.

Saturday was yet another day of blur. I woke up late and decided to call Megan over for pizza. She came over in the early evening and ate Point Pizza and watched gameshows and it was great becasue shes one of my few school friends that I enjoy the company of and hang out with outside of school. We then exchanged very late Christmas and birthday presents (don't ask why so late). I made her a barette clip and got her some lavander candles and these pretty white holders. She got be a yellow power suit, becasue it was so rediculous but I really liek the skirt a lot!. She also made me two pairs of earings and got me some nice eye makeup. We then drove over to her house in our separate cars and then went down to the video store and rented Mallrats. We watched it and then it was tiem for me to go home. I took the long way home and drove around the entire point. I stopped at the park and Point Dume and turned off my car lights and looked out at all the lights across the bay, and thought this is a really nice place to take someone you love.

Sunday was a wake up early Rosebowl morning. I drove over Kanan at 8 in the morning to pick up Jon. It was 20 degrees, the entire day he did not trust the car's temperature reading. We then drove over to pick up Miles. Then we headed to Pasadena. Jon and Miles were both virgins to the swapmeet, and I always enjoy bringing friends who have yet to experience it. As always I saw friends and some of the regular rosebowlers like myself and i saw some of my favorite vendors. I spent a good long time at Andy's booth picking up some records. I got a Duane Eddy LP, a Little Eva 45, a Jefferson Airplane LP and and album by The Pretty Things (which Andy described as a grittier Stones..he was right). I also picked up a a sweet white vest/sweater and a little yellow cardigan, aswell as a pair of boots that are too small for me. Jon got an auto harp! and some nice clothes and glasses, Miles got nothing. It was a good group of friends to go with. I also saw Vincent and Sadie aswell as Kelly, and some kids I went to school with. We went and had Mexican food for lunch and then dropped everyone off at home. I listened to my new records and lounged aorund until it was time for me to drive over to Jon's house. We drove downtown to see Matt and Kim at The Smell. This is my second time seeing them, they are so good live! The first band was okay and I enjoyed the second one a bit more..I made friends with a cute girl named Whitney and we hung out against the wall and made an escape plane for when things got ruff (it did not execute well). I really enjoyed the third band KIT and then of course Matt and Kim. Jon, Miles and his friend and I were right up front against the stage, which was so great except we were smooshed into the stage by the rowdy crowd. People were getting thrown everywhere and my poor damaged internal organs got some squishing. My knees and thighs also have nice bruises where i was up against the statge. Some aging rockabilly cholla had a death grip on my arm and i thought if I did anything more that trying to push her back she would have scratched my eyes out. My friend david was also there...I met him at the last Matt and Kim show with Grace. Jon had me drive his car home becasue he forgot his lisence and wallet (the joke all day was i kept reminding him his wallet was in his jacket pocket..we obviously forgot) I then got to drive over Kanan at 1 in the morning passing only two cars. I listened to the mixtape Jon made me, I really like it a lot. I made it back home by 1:30. Today I got out of bed by noon and out of the house to the hobby shop to work on my physics olympics projects. My dad and I then continued the search for materials at the mall and we then came home where i have been doing homework.

It hasn't been a really relaxing weekend, but it was definately fun! I havent hung out with such a wide variety of friends since ever...but now im getting stressed about finals and the upcoming tests on my insides to see if i still need surgery.

the new boots!



these are a selection from the only pictures ive seen so far from last night..by another friendly LA photographer "redslurpee"

the unabomber

these are mainly from the second band that played (the unabomber is the lead singer)








thanks Jon for taking pictures!

david and i

jon and i have angles








Wednesday, January 10, 2007

stolen sweethearts

it seems i neglect this blog
I now no longer post exclusvely on here only becasue i have a following of friends on livejournal.

I sent albert's care package in the mail, we had a lovely chat in the phone friday night into saturday morning...till 4 am...but he has been missing since them.. i have seen him online once and i did not message him and then again on monday but his away message was on and i signed off.
I'm sure he is fine and I am not to worried about that..but I am worried that he is cutting himself off from everything..including myself..just as things looked promising...he was/is planning a visit on feb 1 for that weekend.and would be staying with me at dani's house. He is a cute boy and i like him very much..and he is one boy who i felt liked me too and i didn't panic!

rosebowl this sunday with jon..then we are seeing matt and kim at the smell..monday is no school
i jsut gotta make it through tomorrow night and im ready for weekend mode.

last weekend was amazing and photos are posted on 476ad.com polaroids galore.
Kime sent me my christmassy/newyears present and i love love love it!



this is him


I love my friends so much, they are beautiful and kind happy people!
we have pool parties and bake cookies and take polaroids galore and smile and sing and dance and balance and make funny faces. iv'e never been soo happy over friends in my life



Sunday, December 31, 2006

2007

I am obviously not at some fun party like the rest of mt friends are

I am sitting in a dark room with a drink. Not much goes on here... I guess I didnt put in a good effort into finding a party here in the valley.

I am usually the one to put on a fireworks show..I didnt even to that

I walked outside into the middle of the street wrapped in a blanket and my unitard and watched other peoples fireworks go off.

I just really want to go home and be with my friends who I love.

I've never made resolutions for New Years...
i guess loose a few pounds
not go into the hospital
start getting serious about my future
and the ultimate cliche of finding love or something close to it.

and I honestly dont mean to be such a downer here..but I can't help being realistic about situations.
There has been no hype this whole winter season...maybe there is something wrong with me? or maybe im distracted by a certain someone.

I had a really lovely day taking pictures in the valley and playing in the snow.
I woke up to beautiful frost covering everything and silver ice crstals fluttering everywhere
and tonight I had a rediculous five course meal that after the first course I was full.

What New Years means to me is remembering to write a new number on my heading for school assignments

Happy 2007 loves!

let us see what you will bring!

in the sleeping bag

written december 30th:

jason called me and it was so nice to hear his voice.

Last night I watched The Notorious Bettie Page.
I full stand by saying it was amazing. I really enjoyed it and it was believable and interesting andI actually want to own it.

People have been acting funny, people being Albert. But i can't complain.I have no right to.

still no new years plans...jason told me about a few parties.. so did colin. Most are in Salt Lake meaning I cannot attend.
I really miss all my friends.
I know a few of you guys read this..so friday do you guys want to have a party or something?
Jon and I are trying to find someone who has a pool.....

anything.i just need a fun fun fun weekend with all my lovelies!

plus jon told me we are gonna have a nature show saturday...and sunday!

i went to the hardware store today and it has everything! i could buy everything i would ever want and need..they even had the red ryder bb-gun just like in a christmas story!

they had a whole display of plastic animals
I eventually want all of them..but today i got a little fawn
its seriously cute cute cute

back in utah

written on december 28:

I knew I was back in Utah the second I looked over to the car next t me and saw a good looking young guy no older than 22 with his wife and 2 kids. I'm glad im not involved in that...although I could have sworn I saw Jason working at the mountain bike shop...I sometimes forget to pay attention to my friends here. Because each time I come I feel I have less and less friends here and more back home. Everyone here starts their adult lives so much earlier and I'm not getting any older..

It is freezing here. My yard is covered in snow. I stocked up on soups and dvds and for the first time we have internet in the house. Last night was so much fun at nicole's..This is a complete change in setting

I need to figure out the balance of everything in my live..and coming here has always been a place for me to get my mind back on track, so I guess i will see about everything.

this place is real where sometimes my life is unrealistic

shit the OH in OHio is such a good movie

its definitely not for children if you know what I mean.

inventory

I originally wrote this on christmas morning...It was posted on my livejournal

Okay so here i go with the inventory!
-1 roll Kodak ultra color 100
-1 roll Fujicolor Superia Reala 100
-1 roll Fujichrome Velvia 100
-30 pack of CD-R
-The Squid and the Whale DVD
-Polaroid Spectra Film
-wireless remote for the Canon Rebel
-a car converter for my computer (so I can use it on road trips)
-Holga camera with the new color splash flash
-5 rolls of 120 film (for the holga) Fujichrome Velvia 100
-15 inch Polaroid flat screen tv

so basically my parents went with a new system for the holidays

My dad took over Christmas
While my mom took over Hanukkah

heres that intake:
-Diane Arbus book
-Red cashemere fingerless gloves that double as mittens from J.Crew
-$25 to the apple store
-Century Girl book (about Doris Eaton..last living star of the Ziegfeld Follies...this book is fucking beautiful)
-Coral thermal cardigan from madewell
-Flower print thermal from free people
-Red sweater from f21
-grey thermal from urban
-red american apparel headband
-Marc Jacobs care package:
-red patent leather key chain
-white mirror compact
-plastic ring
-band aids (this might leave a marc)

-Asphalt tanktop unitard from American Apparel
-Marigold zip up hoodie from American Apparel
-White longsleeve vneck " "

plus atticus got me the turquoise lamé hot shorts


Last night we went to have lobster in Santa Monica... We had a view of the ocean and the Pier. The Ferris wheel looked so pretty and I could see the sea serpent that shoots water in the summer that I have spent many a days climbing on. By luck we had the best view in the restaurant.

I got no sleep last night. I woke up many times...it was just one of those nights where my insomnia decided to hit hard.

I woke up this morning to open the presents and I had missed a call from Kristina!
It made me so happy to hear from her because I miss my SVA friends a lot and so Kristina and I caught up a bit and shared what we got, and discussed our american apparel addiction.

Wednesday is Nicole's big birthday bash!
I'm still not sure what to dress up as...I want to go with my original idea..but I dont think people will get it.
Then I'm off to utah...eh I'm happy to be there but I don't think I will get to hang out with a lot of people.

Then I come home hopefully in time to have a few outings in LA and the Sunday before I go back to school is a nature show with the kids from Arizona! I'm so happy becasue all my friends will be home
Dani will be back form her roadtrip with Derek and Blaine back from her cruise and the rest of the kids will all be back together!

I really want to get my lisence in the mail.

I'm in a good mood now looking back at every thing I got..I'm so thankful because I was sure we weren't doing a big gift thing this year.
Christmas eve puts me in a bad mood. I am always extremely sarcastic and overall an unhappy person
It used to be a big family get together
but when my grandma died so did the tradition and that when my Mom Dad and I began going to Utah. I still dislike spending time with the extended family this time of year only because its not the same...so I guess thats it.

also its hard to deal with christmas when its not very christmasy outside

75 degrees ugh too hot!

Merry Christmas Everyone!!!

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

pictures pictures pictures and lots of them


Yay pictures!!!


i'm off to utah tomorrow

nicoles was a lot of fun!

stacey and i want to throw and american apparel party

to bad she has to go back to college soon

Friday, December 22, 2006

Monday, December 18, 2006

everyday turns turns turns...



I feel young and old at the same time
I want to build a blanket fort
But go and visit friends all over the country on my own.


JP hit his head yesterday
not good
but he seems to be fine.

4 days left till vacation
2 essays
1 test

Thursday, December 14, 2006

mix tapes in the mail

I recieved a yellow envelope in the mail today, enclosed was something that made me want to cry.
A mix tape sent with love from Boy Joshua in Tucson Arizona.
He drew beautiful artwork and taped 16 hand picked songs
and sent it with all his love
to his friend who truely needed a pick me up like this.

I can't wait to listen to it!

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

oh no...

My nose is running and I'm fearing that I am coming down with a cold!
My friend has gone missing. No one is talking about it or those who know where she is are not saying, my teacher said it was private. I am very worried
but I know she is atleast in a good place.
School is getting the best of me and I am dreadung the spiral down into the new year.
I am unprepared for the holidays and my winter break, I want to get my liscene so I can spend my free time exploring and trotting about LA.
I need to go to some shows and do some shopping!
I need to spend time with friends!
Matt and Kim this weekend was amazing, the pictures are posted on 476ad and my livejournal. I have been posting on there which annoys me but it is sometimes easier and i get the feeling more people read it?

I am working on my wish list

i'm not good at asking for things, I'm more of a see them as they come kinda gal.


Sunday, December 10, 2006

little slice of love

For those few who know this dress
this is the dress that I have lusted over at the Rosebowl for over a year
I thought it did not fit
and i was going to take kime and cynthias advice on buying it so no one else could have it
but when i tried it on...
it fit!

12 bucks for a little slice of love



Last night I ventured out into the rain with Grace and Miles to go downtown into the warehouse district to see Matt & Kim and No Age!
It was amazing and freezing and hot and the coolest place to have a show
they played on the skate ramp!
my white shoes got temporatily trashed from being stepped on in the rowdy crowd of hipster boys and girls.

there are pictures on 476ad


there is a link under the link section side bar!

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

working toward the weekend!!

friday will be amazing and make up for saturday and sunday which will consist of memorial services.
last saturday's nature show was super but im expecting friday nights to be supa
blaine and i are planning to make some hot coco and like soup (especially for poor jon who has a sinus infection)
plus we are bringing lots of blankies!

last weekends polaroids: