working toward the weekend!!

friday will be amazing and make up for saturday and sunday which will consist of memorial services.
last saturday's nature show was super but im expecting friday nights to be supa
blaine and i are planning to make some hot coco and like soup (especially for poor jon who has a sinus infection)
plus we are bringing lots of blankies!

last weekends polaroids:

Dear Hippie Postman,

I am so happy you got assigned to deliver my mail every day
and that you can drive a truck with the steering wheel on the wrong side even though you consumed large amounts of drugs in the 60s and 70s..possibly even while delivering my mail today.
ANYWAY you made my day.
i think im going to go meet you every day at the mailbox now.



yeeaaaaaahhhhh maaaaaannnnnnn.

Magazine Day!!

I would like to introduce you all to what i like to call...magazine day!
it is that fabulous day, sometimes even week of the month where all your magazines come!!
and well
that day is today!
what does magazine day hold for me today?
the december/january issue of paper magazine(this also means the new screaming mimi's ad..its fabulous!)
the holiday issue of nylon
and the december/january issue of domino!
so much for getting any work done tonight!

magazine day should be respected like any other day of worship or celebration....
ah the simple little pleasures in life!

just for the fun of it here is the ol' pops and i at a photobooth from the other week

eamon thinks he is a turkey

im getting lazy on titles.
I'm full and possibly, most likely, gained a lot of weight
i got a hair cut!!!
short bangs
almost like real bangs
im working on a picture but im not to photogenic today
and im going to spend tonight scanning polaroids wooo.

2 days left in this weekend
cort has work and cant take kelly and i shopping
i went to see tenascious d in the pick of destiny with atticus..miles tagged along too wearing seeing glasses.
i think i am hanging out with kate this weekend, hopefully!
i need to go back to being social.

uhoh i need to restart the computer.

i'm so dizzy, my head is spinning

i felt enraged and helpless and lacking control over my emotions.
the town papers came out today.

malibu high school student kills self
it is the most impersonal thing to read about a person you know.

one article even spit out some statistics, it disgusted me.

orange soda

what a week my friends, what a week.

I worry about JP and his head a lot, especially now, he can't come to school for a month. His brain heals when he sleeps. I don't need anymore stress in my life.

hoping for this to help

this morning laurel wasn't at school again, but she always skips school.
by tthe end of first period mr. horvath called mr. carrier out of the class, when he returned, he informed us laurel had committed suicide last night. I sat there in shock until my emotions took over and the hysterics began. I can't even believe this has happend, the other day we were talking about old friends, new cars, our futures, new york city, and how she should get snake bites. Laurel has been unhappy for a very long time now, and this was not her first attempt at such an awful act she had also batled with drugs. But there were many times where she was happy and doign well in school, even up until yesterday she was planning ahead, trying to figure out what would be the best for her. When you are best friends with a person even at age 13 and have a falling out it is amazing to start a friendship again, and that was the direction i felt laurel and i were going. Many of her friends have delt with the same things with her, but no matter what all her friends have been there for her. we discussed what may have been going through her head last night in our grieving meetings. the whole thing was surreal. groups of girls slowly trickling into the office, but the cries were heard before the faces seen. the awful part was how it turned into gossip in the halls and people were saying "did you hear about that girl......"
i spent my day with friends, a group of friends that once were so tightly knit but have driffeted only to be brought back together for soemthing so terrible. we wandered the halls aimlessly, occasionally breaking down into tears, we shared memories and our disbelief. all day, i have dug up memories from back to 6th grade, so detailed i am amazed at myself.

laurel you are a beautiful amazing unique person and friend, and i have never met a spirit like yours

i miss you so much and i will always remember you and our friendship

we are all living life to its fullest for you

the date has been set

the factory girl
is supposedly set to open on december 29th!

yay for edie biopics

we demand fall

Eamon and I have come to a conclusion.

we need winter coats,

and scarves...etc

so this will eventually be us

oh miss margot.

Creative Kids go BOO!

Well it is Halloween again
and I stayed till lunch to get some snapshots of the costumes of kids who weren't dressed as lame or hoes.
I think it came out well.
ceiling fan, get it?

gorilla girl

Borat


Princeton Review ahhhh SAT Prep

oh my god cameron as the police officer from the village people.


aww milesy


bed linen

i just want a headdress

a cute girl went all out with the 80's hair and hairspray bangs, thank god she didnt do a side ponytail


president of the yacht club

ari! my ninja boy, i can forgive him for not being richie with me


Kate, cheerleader vice versa footballplayer

tradition

super girls

threesome

charlie looking like a total babe.

ari's ninja fet

Life Without Boundaries

So Dysfunctional.

and I am big fan of the dysfunctional family movie.

The costumes and series of events were over the top.

I'm a bit jealous of those who get to experience "fall".




all I get is the clocks turned back.

Prepared for pastel pastries, lace and silk galore

one word: MONTAGE

that movie goes down in my books as having one of the greatest montages paired with the perfect music. The colorful fabrics and candies and shoes and champagne paired with Bow Wow Wow's "I Want Candy" was worth the 10 buck ticket price. The colorful party scences and multiple shades of pink poker chips were such a treat to watch. I loved noticing Sofia Coppola's signature touches on her film like her obvious infatuation of throwing Kirsten Dunst into fields with diffused afternoon light and sunglares that reminisced scenes from The Virgin Suicides. The costumes and hair were marvelous and breathtaking and my appreciation for color is cemented and I am overall inspired in multiple ways.

Go see it! I promise you will be inspired, who cares if its not historically accurate, it's absolutely mindblowing to watch.

Emergency Hospital Visit

Well I am in the hospital.

Way back I wasn't feeling well, I thought I had the flu and i was achy from that

but it turns out no.

Friday: I woke up went with my mom to pick up her car after showing her the large swelling on the right side of my stomach and telling her about how i was in more pain than normal. She then had to visit her doctor at UCLA, as i sat in the car unable to move. We finally got to the motion picture doctor, for those who dont know I am extremely afraid of the doctors etc. so i sat crying in pain and fear in the waiting room, they finally took me in and said well it may be your appendix but you need to go to this other place to get a cat scan. I then went there and had lost the energy to walk once getting to the waiting room. I got a wheelchair and i was taken to a back room where i had to lay for a hour and a half drinking barium sulfate to prep me for the catscan, it was awful and chalky and tasted like banana. I was there fever until they confirmed it was my appndix and it had perferated had abessed. I then went to St Johns Hospital to the emergeny room. I was put in my own room and my doctor at the hopital came in and explained the whole thing and i basically had an infected area atleast teh size of a grapefruit that would be drained...she also told me I had a high white blood cell count an a fast heart rate which ment i would go into intensive care. I was moved out of my private room in the emergecy room into a curtained area with beds. i saw crazy homeless screaming and running infront of me and szchohrenic women in the curtain areas next to me. I was hooked up to a heart monitor and my IV waiting for my procedure. THey finally took me u, I got another cat scan and then was given pain medication and numbing stuff on m stomach where a small hole was made to insert a tube, they doctor then pressed the fliud out of my absess, it was almost a liters worth. after i was put back in the emergencyroom with the crazys until my really nice room in the ICU was made up. There i was bathed and given my morphine button and watched over every second. I was in ear the whole day wanting to go home and it was a huge ordeal to even go to the doctors and it kept getting more scary, they took a lot of my blood and i was allowed to have nothing, not even water!!!

Saturday: I woke up to some more blood tests, and my doctor saying the procedure went vey well and i could have ice chips ad water and i would be moved to a normal room. my aunt and cousin came to visit My dad was bringining all the necessites. I stayed in bed....i got some flowers

Sundsay: Soft food day...i havent eaten since thursday and dr. childs said i could now.
Dalton came and visited, arnolds mom ella came, chelsea and hannah came. they took away my morphine and ive been on and off the iv.
ive had my blood taken from 3 different spots....


visitors are welcome here!! just tell me!
please come see me, im stuck in bed.

poor tower records

the sale is on

so i better make my way out to sunset and stock up


with a generation of itunes fuckers
who have no appreciation of haveing your music tangible
and prefer a file that can die with your computer at any moment

this is all becasue of that


over the past year or so it has been the death of the record store around here...and this is a big loss.

well ameobayou seem to be the only one left..plus you came in late to the game but...hope you stand strong and dont gauge us even more with your high prices.

what am i thinking?!

i wrote a few times in my live journal..how lame..

i had some sort of stomach flu monday
buy my stomach muscles are in extreme pain and cramped and i dont know why.

on a happier note....
paris and nicole have been reunited!!!!!!!!

thank god.

those kids

I miss them like crazy, and I would give anything to be back in the month of july with them.

I go through my pictures
and want to cry.
its really lame how far apart we all are.

i need a trip back east to see my lovers.

Lazy Daisy

My legs are getting longer.

I'm covered in white paint.

Lets get stuff accomplished.

M.I.A.

my housekeeper has hid my favorite white sneaker flats.

days missing:4.5


went to the new H&M
got 5 cute pieces, hopefully photos to come
1 week away from DETOUR!

teenage wasteland.

I think I may be in(lust)love with this boy
who I met at the beginning of the year.
he's awfully perfect possibly because his tastes in art and music and movies and hobbies are similar to mine.
Its comforting to know he doesn't look like me.
I tell everyone how I wish I saw him more often.
I worry about if I'm exaggerating and getting to involved over absolutely nothing.
I wonder why its so quiet.

it makes me refer back to almost a year ago this December when I was involved with a boy who dressed almost identical to I.
I laughed when I passed him in the hall and we were once again dressed similar. I also laugh about how we never felt the need to talk... or maybe it was because we had nothing to talk about.

I have found a beautiful boy, who I never have a chance with, not in my wildest dreams.
I met him by complete fluke and found him again by pure coincidence. This has happened many times though.
and I'm hesitant to how it all ends.

I joke about becoming a nun.
I don't think I ever would. Ever
I need to work on friend versus something else.

improvements for the school year
some random thoughts about attatchement.


3 day weekend
no plans
boys are to busy
I'm unsure about who I want to socalize with.

lady bug lady bug, i love you.

I have found two ladybugs in my bed
in the past few weeks

one alive
the last dead

its funny seeing a ladybug at night

they seem so out of place.

i loved seeing this boy
he is such the looker
i missed his other half
buck
but i would like to keep the image of him in my head when he still had his crusty boy looks, brown hair and scruffy beard included.
so not down with the bleach and the clean shaven face

Ew. High School

Seriously

it is pretty bad

and I want to transfer schools

I enjoy going back to school feeling good, and looking good
only to remember that these are my friends..
and the friends that I do love
are in none of my classes

especially english

ew..its not AP
I have creepers to the left of me, ghetto hoes to my right.

Seriously

any ideas on private schools

crossroads for second semester and senior year?

really
please
can i just graduate now?

i need to scan in my super first day outfit photos
expect that soon.

lets us list three

Wow..end of summer
where did it go.....

3 Best Places:
Brooklyn
Lower Manhattan
my pool

3 Songs:
holy night by deerhoof
the party's crashing us by of montreal
so rich so pretty by mickey avalon
(its hard to chose just three)


3 People:
Austin
Kristina
Dana
another hard one to choose
can i put daniel on to..he is necessary.


3 Objects:
headbands
Subways
popsicles

3 things you hated:
leaving SVA
sweating
curfew


3 things you will never forget:
greg's bbq
long island weekend
union square


3 things you loved:
amazing new best friends
freedom
the city


3 things you have to do next summer:
go to new york again
return to previous summer days..preferably those of the summer before 8th grade
go on amazing adventures with amazing people